Bam!

Yesterday was not the greatest day of my life. Suddenly I'm realizing all of the imperfections of what's going on, not that I didn't see them before. I've seen them everyday, even if the day was awesome, theres always those thoughts of what is wrong. Not that life is perfect, because it isn't. Whose life is? I bet you no one can say theirs is. No matter how much to you it seems it is flawless behind it is a different story. I am secretly giving up. My views on lots of things have changed. I will try to change back and be the girl I once was. The 'good' girl. I will try not to disappoint you guys anymore. I will give an effort to be the one with straight A's, the girl who that went along with everyone else. I wil try to be who you want me to be on the outside to satisfy you, what I feel doesn't matter to anyone. What you feel does. It makes no difference if I am sad, or I am happy.
I am just glad I was standing near the corner, unnoticed, with others facing the other direction. It doesn't need to be shown.
Thanks for being there, thought I didn't say anything. I couldn't explain nor can I now.

My Internet Wondow just shut down. I was thinking to myself that I wouldn't type it all up again. This would've never been known, why does Blogger be so advanced and saved a draft of it.