doubleyou

I realize that its never going to go back to where we were. I dont know if i want to ask for more, and risk it. Theres not much to lose, only those moments. I know our friendship has already been replaced and I notice that I dont even try my hardest anymore. I dont want to be like the other girl. Yall talk about her so much, and I wonder if its ever like that with me. Its only a month before school is out. Its only a month before I leave for a while. Are things just gonna be worse when I come back? I want it to be how it was way back, when I was like her. Nothing more, nothing less, but the one that would be told everything. the one that was understood. Even though Im the one not making an effort, I want someone else to try for me. To make me feel that I dont have to be the one thats out of her comfort zone, just to pull things in.

Im jealous of you, why do you always have to be the one.